I called a friend.
She presses ignore.

I tried several calls for help online.
Most were ignored. So I tried to be blunt.

“are you there?”
“yeah”
“i’m feeling really down i need someone to talk to”
“sure… haha look at my picture with my boyfriend it’s so cute!”

“heyyy “
“sorry… i don’t feel like talking right now…”
“whats so damn terrible that you have to be depressed? you’re always so damn depressed over nothing, miss rich bitch whos over spoiled”

All I wanted was someone to talk to. My friends know I have a problem controlling my emotions. I can deal with the phone call, maybe she was busy. My best friend wouldn’t help me. Another good friend would rather ask me about her cute boyfriend.

I’m tired of being depressed. I’m tired of finding myself on the floor curled up in my closet bawling my eyes out grippng onto the floor. I’m tired of thinking the same horible untrue thoughts about my self which I end up believing for that time.

It doesn’t take much to be there for someone. I don’t let myself cry long, I give myself 15 minutes maximum and then I’m fully clear within 10 minutes. It’s even shorter if someone’s there.

If someone tells you they’re depressed… write down other stuff to tell them later, and just listen. All it took for me was someone to listen and show they cared.

I don’t think I’m making sense.

The point is if someone is upset, just listen. It’s really not that hard.

kthx.